//give my all//

lately i've been thinking and we all know what thinking does to us.
what lifestyle am i living? is it acceptable in God's eyes.?
I don't think so...i mean i don't do anything bad like have sex, drink, do drugs, lie, or steal or any of the usual bads
but now i'm getting the feeling that i'm not doing enough to be the best that i can
i'm slacking and i know it.
i know i should be reading His word every day
but i dont.
i need to.
i know i should surround myself with people that are acceptable in his eyes
but i dont
i need to.
i feel like such a slacker
time needs to be made for Him my life should be devoted to serving him
am i doing all that i can?
no.
i'm going to try
try the hardest i can.

//say what you need to say//

even when your hands are shaking
even if your faith is broken
say what you need to say
its better to say too much than never to
say what you need to say.
john mayer
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i cant wait until the day when i find out what my
purpose is in this life. i'm so ready to become something
to do something for people. to serve a purpose.
i'm ready now all i need is Gods word.
how amazing it must feel to do Gods work
to help someone.
to really help someone.
to save a life.
it sounds selfish when i say it but thats what i want
i wish i could feel what those people feel when they save
a child or stop someone from going off the edge.
thats what i want.
to help.
to server others.
to serve my God.